the fire that rages within

bitchinata:

No matter how much she hated crying, she couldn’t stop tears from welling up in her eyes this time, after hearing him say that. Her grip around him tightened, as if she were afraid to let go. Unlike him, Hinata blamed herself, maybe his father a little as well, but mainly herself.

                          ’ I’m so sorry Hono. You’re such a good boy— I just.. I just wish I could have done more for you, given you a better life. I’ve made so many mistakes. I wish you were born into a better family. I’m sorry you were born to me; like this. I’m sorry you never got a normal family. I’m so sorry.’

Her body trembled and her voice shook as she spoke, even if he couldn’t see her face it was obvious that she was crying.

                                 "S-shut…shut up—okay?“ His voice rang with a huskier, more urgent tone. Wrapped arms draw her even closer to him that she could hear him trying not to sob between pseudo-angry words. The walls he has built around him from everyone else, especially from his two parents, began crumbling, and he hated this feeling of being vulnerable. But he sees his mother lower all of her defenses, the well-guarded and tough facade that accompanied her with brash words and fist fights; they were starting to crack like the reflection of a mirror—letting him see a side of his mother, a part of her that she has only shown once when she had this huge fight with father when Hono was still a child.

                                          "Y-you’re wrong, mom.” Because he was never really articulate like his father, and words that sounded like prose in his thoughts would form a lump in his throat instead. “I-I don’t care if y-you think I would have a better life—I’m with you! And you chose to have me instead of leaving me…
                                           …and I know I cause you so much trouble and I run away from home or I say things like I wish I was never been born but I’m so glad to have been born to you. I don’t care about a normal life or family; you’re my life and family.
                                                                                   I don’t want anything else in this world.”